If you are suffering in any way, please remember to use every skill in your kitbag and please reach out for support and healing if needed.
My thoughts are with you as you struggle with that awful anxiety. Please take care and continue to unplug at times from the multitudinous threads impacting this crescendo of change. Deepen into your music and the beauty of the glorious nature around you as much as you can.
Anxiety is understandable, knowing what you know and being as sensitive as you are. I sense that you have all your physical and financial needs well and truly covered for the rest of your and your wife's life.
What if 'Life on Earth' is one incredibly intricate 'video game' in a teeming cosmos designed by a group of emotionless ET gamers? Or what if it's a farm for harvesting us as resources by malevolent off-planet lifeforms/extraterrestrials?
I choose to see Earth as a garden with all the exquisite beauty and complexity of infinite ecosystems, and that within the polarity good will overcome evil. How? By: Choosing love and compassion. Escaping the grids of dominant reality. Jumping timelines. Being selective and even refocussing our interests. Embodying our mentors' attitudes and lifestyles.
I have to believe there is an in-built 'Home Safe to Creator Source' key. There is no doubt the dials have been turned up. One mission is to find a way through the mazes to overthrow the evil implants, debilitating technologies, mind-control, anxieties, nightmares, illnesses, etc and find a way out of the game or find sovereignty and joy within the hologram within the hologram within the fractal
Humans have been at this stage before, and before. These years can be compared to the historical end game called 'The Final Days of Atlantis'. Even though many were lost, the savvy and informed survived to continue the species. And the game plays on. We have our Avatars. Is it wise to reboot, expand our strategies or alter our focus?
The doors to the safety of higher consciousness are open. Could it be that our task now is to BECOME our Higher Self ... and more? Does it make sense to focus on embodying our Higher Self more fully into our Avatar like a Walk-In from Source?